Laqte night rabling

shadesong  posted this quote tonight  and got to thinking
I know two kinds of adults. One carries inside himself the dead child that he once was. The other is a very rare kind of adult, who carries inside himself a living child-- curious, thirsty for love, thirsty for knowledge..."

--Amos Oz

i worry that i will be not great at being a mom  b/c i was a child  carring a dead  child inside her .. i never did play it just wan't my thing  ever i can't remeber playing i can't remember playing with kids at school unlessit was in gym class and then i tried to get out of that by keeping score  or timing something  or anything


I just never played i still don't play i don't really play carf games i don't play board games well hardly every - sometimes i'm roped it to it but even then i realy have fun with it

Does this mean someting is worng with me ...? i mean i don't feellike i've missed anyhting by it  .. but who knows -


 this conculdes this portin of headnoiseby Phoenix