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i use livejournal as a theorpy tool i actually go back and ready the thigns that i wrote years ago months ago -

 it i'm having a hard time with feeling my polite society mask in place - the one that makes me someone who people like knowing - today the raw dark beast is refusing to make nice with the mask


Today i am dangerous - it's not that i feel dangerous it's that i am dangourous - i have ben lashing out at peopl who have done nothing to deserve it  - work up thismorning and plotted how to destroy a frineds trust  and felt good about - i'm stilling at my desk hopingthat by the time i eat at 4  today i will have gotten to a place wher i'm not going to want to act on these feelings anymore


 some times it's safe to just hide