Phoenix Arose

a few days late but i finally reclaimed one part of my house ( i have 4 boys and a cat so cut me some slack), the kitchen and have my offering to bridgid up - i have been cooking and cleaning for what feels like days - the next 2 day i think the kitchen staff has off

i also have been having alot of fear and an overwhelming feeling of being overwhelmed - James has been sick really sick and has missed alot of work. i'm very worried about his health right now and the soonest a specialist can see him is the 20th of feb - i'm hoping he holds up that long.

I drew runes today not out of a bag but mediated on and then drew the ones that came to mind - and from what i can tell they were 1. mystery/initiation 2. protection/communing with the gods 3. tempering/"need fire"/trial by fire and 4. endurance/inner peace. so i guess i just need to be strong and keep working hard.

i think that's it for now

yesterday miracles of miracles I was sent home at 2:18 pm - so went home then drove to Waco - had dinner with matt =) and since he had a hotel ..... i stayed the night;)


how ever that means i had to drive home this morning - dude that is a long a** drive in the A.M. - b/c texas does those werid night speed limits. *whimper* I made it to work on time I am still sans caffeine - that shall be fixed shortly

There is also a rumor that my lateral promotion might be going away - how sad - I'm not terrible y upset by this since I was promoted with out pay I have had insomnia, nightmares about work, my hair is falling out, and I've just been a general mess. - I'm okay with this. I'm only at gig for a few more months - so people should you want any toys form the fruit basket at a mad discount ......... Let me know =) so we can hook you up with it

in other news I think I'm going to have to sit on matt to get him up on this idea about getting a place and date earlier than 1 year out is a good thing there are several venues I'm looking at and they fill up fast .... =/  I'm getting the thoughts on Bridesmaid dresses - and i need to start looking at mine - *sigh*


so that's the latest with me

 Oh I watched the bush announcement last night - it sound like we are going to be attacking Syria and Iran soon   - that's just great .... just  what we need

Relationships - things are good here - there are many things i can't talk about here - there will be a locked a post some place later - but things are right where they need to be

Life: Busy! Work is ramping up. I got my tree almost all the way up the last 2 rows of branches of the tree still need to be put on but the holder is broken for the second to last row - pics below - I'm trying to decide about whether or not I actually need to to add those last 2 rows. I need ornament hooks and i need to get to the other ornaments from mom's place. It's been pretty relaxing getting the lights on the tree and the tree up - we need to look in to getting a bigger tree skirt if we are going to put the last rows on. House is shaping up and we may look in to keeping it kinda the way it is. M. has been working on the tickets (thankyou) and the house mate stuff (thanks again). also I'm on cingluar thatks agin to M. it's great one less bill to pay.



Dogs: have been playing hard they have been sleeping like rocks they wouldn't even lift their heads up so that i could take their bark collars off last night and they didn't want to get up - silly lazy dogs.

Work: the explicative words have not been invented yet to describe the mess that is the work situation right now - need less to say they are paying made crazy money to have me on this stupid schedule bending all kinda rules and if the could just put me back on a "normal schedule "- or the one i asked for things would be cheaper and easier all the way 'round for them. This week i got shift differential plus over time (on the shift differntial) plus holiday pay plus flexible lunches ......

Last night I washed the dog yes just one dog - Dallas cause he stank - he now smells like dog wish is okay I guess being that he is a dog. We had to work to convince him that the bath tub is really okay it won't eat you and stuff - so one clean dog - the other one needs a bath today and the cats need to be washed as well ......


House it's in reasonable order daddy is cleaning most of it while I'm at work today =) my room needs some help but I can work on that after I leave the basket today

Me - dude I have an okay life it's not everything I want but I doesn't suck either

This new lateral promotion thing not good for my health - I have chewed a raw spot on my tongue in my sleep my jaw hurts from clenching it in my sleep my body is tired my allergies suck i feel like I'm drowning whick makes moving about hard - i can't go tot he doctore b/c i can't get time off and to go i can't afford to go to dotcor b/c mi'm bearly eacking by money wise at this house - i havin't seen matt in a couple weeks b/c i can't get a damned reasonable schedule bah - I really need to know that I have locked in schedule that I like that will allow me to see matt - I'm not sure I'll get tit but I can try

I'm done for now

Yesterday's BPAL Excolo: Bastet: Bast, Ubasti, Ailuros, Ba-en-Aset. Represented as both a domestic cat and a fierce lioness, she truly evidences traits of both. She is the Mother of All Cats, Goddess of Sensuality, Fertility, and a guardian and protector of women. She is also one of the Eyes of Ra, and in that aspect is an Avenging Goddess, seeking retribution and punishing enemies of her people. Luxuriant amber, warm Egyptian musk, fierce saffron and soft myrrh, almond, cardamom and golden lotus.
In the Bottle: Almonds Lotus Amber
On me ->
Wet: Almonds and myrrh
Drying: smells like Egypt looks no single not sticks out
Dry: Sweet and sexy - a serious turn on
Hours Later: I could still smell this when I fell asleep last night after my bath
this is totally a keeper - 5 ml even ... Not that any one should per se be surprised at this ;)

I am very mush looking forward to splitting the imps from EBAY and ordering some more stuff from the lab - imps an some 5ml of the Limited Editions .... But those will have to wait for the OT to start 1st b/c on hour of over time covers the cost of one bottle * thinks fondly of the fun I could have with that *3 personal imps left in my box ...... *sigh*

other new still no rent from roomies while on one hand it's nice to be standing on my own ..... The flip side is I'm broke all the time .... This makes bills and what not very hard - poot - ah well it will get better

so there is some muck going around my department every one is coughing all the time and sneezing and drinking ...... TEA - my evil plot is working - my evil plot to clarify is the tea not the sick parts.

sounds like I was smart not to go camping this weekend it was cold and windy and since I would have tot spend that time along in my tent - it would have sucked ass - the are no glowing reports of how much this weekend rocked peoples socks - so I'm thinking the only thing I missed was seeing some people .... I know where you live I will come visit.

I should pretend to work now

BPAL: Wanderlust : Morocco: The intoxicating perfume of exotic incenses wafting on warm desert breezes. Arabian spices wind through a blend of warm musk, carnation, red sandalwood and cassia.
In the bottle: Sandalwood
On me ->
Wet: floral - carnation I guess ?
Drying: Carnation and sandalwood
Dry: Sandalwood steals the show but there is still some flower in there and a bare whiff if musk - 12 hours later .... I really like it a lot

on to other things -
S-n-B was good last night I needed to get out - I'm getting out again tonight as I will be going to Scotchtober party tonight - but I have to go home and change after work so I might be a bit late but I'm going damn it. Yes there was much laughing last night in general about Halloween and the vampire movies. I did manage to get some of my cross stitching done - not as much as I would have liked - but then again - I don't really care that much - it' not like I have a tie frame to complete this thing and I need to make two actually ..... one for each god son =)

clothes at least some of them got washed today i need to finish unpacking the garage there are somethings I can't find since we moved and I have a feeling that they are in the garage still ..... Bills ah yes bills - that's a whole other story entirely. Glad I got paid now to bother roomies about it

in other BPAL news - does any one have a good format for recording the smells you have tried ? I was thinking doing this the old fashion way on paper creating a booklet or something ...... I'm still working on that any interest once/when I get something figured out in having one ?

Any one ?

I have returned from my weekend - had a good time -came back to find out that my weekend has moved ...... Starting Saturday it will be Wed and Thur - this does not work for me even remotely - grrrr also with this weekend move I have lunch at 10:30 in the morning on week days WTF who eats "lunch" at 10;30 am

*points to self* has a lot of things to write but can't post about them yet *flips the bird to the lurkers in Phoenix*


that is all for now

incase you are wondering I am not strong enougth to move my house or walk my dogs or climb up the stairs too often or drive alfter dowong on of those things yes i will be calling the PT people today to see if we can get me in some time soon work will have to deal


Also my cell is off again =P


i'm still not on cingular i'm goign to see if i can get that set up today my self i can't wait any more - nice as it would have been to write that off m the monthly bills


Dogs are moved =) Catts will be moved thursday - there is still alot of crap inthe house that basically needs to be thrown in a car and moved i nee to switch the utilitys today - and get the old ones cut off


i have 90 min of OT for salf paced training to day wanna bet i can nail it in under 90 mins - i think so too

i'm home i'm safe i am oh so verry tired my body thinks this sucks - i need to fine someone to curl up and nap with inthe next couple weeks so maybe i can get some sleep
we just annouced a REBATE for "free"ipod with computer pruchase ......... people are goign nuts - stupid people

"we could kill every one" - Roco- boondock staints

so this is day one of my 7am-4pm shift - i feel like death - that's about ho i always feel at 7am - i haven't had any tea yet and i can't get my voice running which is kinda sucky since i answer phones for a living *smerk*

i pulled 17 jobs from the statesman last night i need to apply for and fax info to some of them - have i metioned that job hunting sucks? i'll get better with it once i get an interveiw or two - i need to send info out today via mail for one position. which means i need to print resumes - which means i should ask dad about that printer he has - i know i could have stuff printered at kinkos but i have burned my budget for the week so no $$ till pay day.


i bought the dogs a Kong http://www.kongcompany.com/worlds_best.html and ... the puppy is in love i bought the super tuff one b/c she chews alot - like at puppy hight no bark left on my trees. so here's hoping she stops chewing every thing in the yard

Thoughts on H.S. - come about while waiting on laura's show to start

highschool sweethearts: this is not an over rated experiance Crystal and Juan are hs sweethearts. It's a good and heathy thing, teachesyou to love and be open and accept love early. And when it works out in the longer run it's really great b/c if you can make it thru hs and college together thru allthe changes - they really will be there for you no matter what

It's a blessing to be that young it reminded me how bitter and jaded i really am about life and love- it's also firgening how bad people i think are bitter and jaded must be!
I also think i figured out what cause part of the issues with matt and i over x-mas - I am almost incapable of being young and stupid. I never really got to be i went from 5 to 30 and that didn't leave alot of time for sillimess or playing amd it left zero room for stupidity. Guys like that too - they like the silly young and stupid thing i can give that to any one. and maybe it's b/c no one has ever asked it of me - they just went else where for it - and as long as they tellme they are doing that it's fine - it's the hiding it thing that gets me. I was sitting in the "pit" with laura at intermission and her sr. sara was there with her s.o. who is in the army and they were playing he stole her sandwich and she stole it back and then he took her shoe and threw it across the pit and then she pleded and whine till he got it for her. It's a part of me that i'm not okay with and never had validated and i guess boys like that stuff i sould attempt to cultivate that in me. It is okay to be silly and act like a normal girl - i do not have to be perfect all the time. it's okay to blush - be embarassed it's good for you.

Just got back from a communication meeting they try to have them every 6 months or so - i really wanted to be excused from te meeting the agenda included all the things that they were going to be doing for the next 6 mothes to make x-mas more bearble this year - i won't be here so what do i care really that they are moving buildings for more better space in late july and that they have better planning and they wanted to thank us for our hard work (but not hire me ). I'm being stupid about this job thing - i need to focus my "work/job/career" engery away from the fruit basket and into finding a job but i still could get hired here so it's hard not to give 110% of me to this gig. to make my whole situation funnier they are goingto have an overflow call canter in MESA AZ - that's where matt is for those of you who don't know - it's not run my apple - but i thought about moveing out there in sept - i've decided not to but i still found that funny. i need to step up from 15 jobs a day to 30 - it's going to be hard to do but seriously would improve my chances of getting hired - i also need to go to book stores and see about getting hired there - *sigh* bcak from lunch now i go to work