i'm sorry

I’m dying again - Kris and Anna have told me to deal and they are right I should that doesn't stop me from hurting thought - I keep ripping out parts of my self in hope that something - or rather only the good stuff will be left and there just isn't enough to go around these days - there just isn't

I don't quite know how to put everything back together again either - it's like a puzzle that keeps changing the shapes of the pieces even thought the picture is still the same - nothing seems to be coming together right - well I think some things are starting to fall into place - but I don't know - maybe they aren't

I’m sorry....
.... Anth because I have been an uber bitch lately and I can't tell you why
... To my co -workers for being a "flake - or flakier than you guys are used to" because I’ve had personal battles to fight and I’m sorry that I have let my work quality slip
.... To miscellaneous friends and acquaintances - for just not being there and for putting undue stress on you all by dealing with things the way I have

....to my family for not being around and seeing every one more often - I wish it was easier for me to be around you all these days but it just isn't -


It’s been good to here from all of you who have been popping up over the last few weeks a blast from past has been needed

who looks down on whom

this is too funny