Jacked from my brother swem

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there was a time where simple easy choises would have been the best thing in the world. now it just seems like no matter how simple the chooise it has more consequences than on person can even imagine. And the Easy answers mean bigger problems down the line.

I spent last night in the company of my best friend .... she's known me for 9 years which doesn't seem like a long time but it's longer than most marriges last these days. Here's to Miss Anna ! Huzza

In talking to Anna last night i realized

That at heart i am a mid-western farm girl and i really do want a husband, 2 kids[one boy one girl], a two car garage[with two resonably new working cars in it] and my cats and maybe a dog [a great big lab like dog]. Enought money to not be counting penies and not so much we take it for granted. I still want to work becuase i like working and couldn't be home all day [have you ever watched day time TV], but i want to be able to take care of the kids and not leave them at home all day or all evening by themselfs. enought land that the dog could be happy and there could be a garden and in a perfect world a small 2 horse barn [because i miss riding ALOT - there is nothing like having a un bridled un saddled house under you and you two just running - you just don't know]

and this mythical Husband like creature...

• hansome - does't have to be drop dead just hansome enought for me to want to show him off
• loving - if i need one thing it's unconditional love
• trust - trust is a big thing trust both ways
• sexual - i don't want a dead stick .. sex is fun and should be enjoyed till your dead
• someone who makes me feel safe - feel being the operative word  i can be safe and not feel it some one who after a long and trying day will hold me and tell me that it will be better
• strong - not just physically but sprtitually and emontionally - some whom i can lean on for support also someone man enough to lean on me when they need to
• someone i can get lose in
• someone who isn't stuck in thier ways soo much that wecan't build a life together
• soemone who won't under any sircomstances abuse me or any poteitioal childern
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