Ask and you shall receive

late tuesday night /Wednesday morning (b4 CMA ) i was medidtaing on this whole relationship issue  think and for like the millionth  time  Bast asked me what i wanted for for the millionand first time i said matt .... and she said no really make a list

 so i made a list of what i want in a mate

• i want some one to love me
  
• when it gets hard i want them to fight
  
• when i run i want them to chase after me
  
• on my bad days i wan to be held till the rage passes
  
• i wan to make love till our bodies are tired and then fall alseep
  
• i want a man who passionatly kisses me
  
• i want a man who know how to work hard, then call it a day, comes home to his family plays with our childern; share a meal with us; helps put he chidern to bed, then spendssome time with me
  
• A man who takes me to bed , some times to sleep, some times to make love, some times to be silly an dplay
• I want a man who will be interested in what i look like but who is is pround and thinks i look beautiful in sweats
• a  man who notices that my bra and panties match
  
• a man who tells me how much he wants me and why
• who's not afiad that i'm smar, bright and witty
• A man  who isn't intimated by my life
  
• a man who encourages me tyo chase my dreams and passions
• i want a man who makes me feel like i'm the only woman in their life
  

 And in a truly amzing way the universe delivered express even  too much too soon too fast  but there it was  all those things  or at least a desire for those things , a willing ness to work for those things 

A drive to make me happy


 4 days later i cam home looked in the mirror (saw the freckles) and thought damn i look good i felt pretty .... any idea how long it's been since i woke up feeling pretty ........ *sigh* a long ass time

Beltane cleared up my head space in ways that were so good for me i can't  begin to explain 

A million thank yous to Goo and Bran and Meri and every one who had a hand in planning  it was amazing !!!!!!