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i've recently been working thru why i feel the way io do about somethings not because "i must know why" but more sudden realizations that "oh that way i feel this way". i was explaining to someone about why muslim women wear a head scarf and while we were chatting i said that if 911 had not happened i'd probably wear one. It's a modestly thing. i find my hair to be very sensual (not sexual) and this is really why i wear my hair in a pony tail or a bun most of the time. i find people touching my hair very person and if it's up then people can't and don't wanna touch it. paradoxically i'd probably spend more time fixing my hair if i felt i could cover it "in public".

more later #figuringsh!tout