i am so this cat

[phoenix_arose]

Free will astrology for the 7th - 14th
After studying your planetary aspects, I got on my bicycle and took a vow to scour the world for an omen that would embody their meaning. Within a few minutes, I spied what my intuition immediately knew I was looking for: a carport with grass growing on the roof. Here are two interpretations of the oracle: 1. It's now possible for something to grow in a place that you thought was barren and/or over your head. 2. Fertility will abound in a high place that isn't usually hospitable to sprouting seeds.


So i've been feeling a bit overwhelmed and so i meditated and drew (with pen and paper) ruins and a lits of what i wanted

here's what i got in order
What is not yet known or revealed, the essential self, taking a chance. Initiation, knowledge of one's destiny, knowledge of future matters, determining the future or your path. Pertaining to things feminine, feminine mysteries. Good lot, fellowship and joy. Evolutionary change.
The Higher Self, Spiritual Nature, Duality, needing care in approach to important matters. Protection, a shield. The protective urge to shelter oneself or others. Defense, warding off of evil, shield, guardian. Connection with the gods, awakening, higher life. It can be used to channel energies appropriately. Follow your instincts. Keep hold of success or maintain a position won or earned.
Haegal has therefore come to represent unwelcome external chnage that if used positively can transform life and sorrow to happiness.Wrath of nature, destructive, uncontrolled forces, especially the weather, or within the unconscious. Tempering, testing, trial. Controlled crisis, leading to completion, inner harmony.
Needs that can be met by action and reaction to external events, self-reliance, the desire for achievement, passion. It is a rune of want and desire that produces the "need-fire" that drives a man or woman to obtain that which he or she desires. Because of  this naudhiz is associated with love magic.

All of them are from he Second Aett:The watcher Heindall keeper of the Rainbow bridge to the Heavens; the icy bridge to the Underworld. Keywords: Limitation, Fate, The Inner Journey




 Why i feel like the cat ....... spent 8 hours in the ER this morning with James; they still do not know what's wrong with him and he can't see a specialist till the 20th - while James continues to be opposed to engergic help from people i could certainly use some good thoughts for the next week

So this morning James work up at 4:30 am vomiting blood and passing blood in his stool - he waited to wake me up till 5:30 when most of the worst stuff had passed and we went to the e.r. - they were kind enough and got him in a room drew blood and started giving him fluids. he took 2 liters in less than and hour they gave him after 2 hours and a billion  questions anti nausia drugs thru his iv and a shoot in his bum for the abdominal cramping. things where better for a bit after the 4th year med student got done flirting with him - i mean taking his medical history  they determined his abdomin need a CAT scan - it took him 2 hours to choke down the contrast die and then 1 and half for them to come and wheel him to the scan. After they read the scan they tell us that there is a aprt of his colon that is enlarged (read swollen) but inconclusive. What they seem to be worried about is the CAT showed fluid around his  gallbladder so they wait about 1n hour or so and do and ultrasound on the gallbladder and there is no fluid there. so gallbladder is not the issue. they smile write some scrips for pain meds and send us on our way home. they will send the offical findings to the GI docter he sees on the 20 where i am know we will get some answers - b/c this whole throwing 2-6 times aday 5-7 days a week plus the other bowel things is not going to work if they say gee i don't and send us home. damn it i need and diagnois and treatment ...... is becca out of med school yet ?

Comments

[endora.livejournal.com]

Any improvement on how James is doing?

"while James continues to be opposed to engergic help from people i could certainly use some good thoughts for the next week "

The "good thoughts for you" have certainly been coming your way from me! Is James still not comfortable with receiving energy work from folks?? I ask because there was a request on another list to send "healing energy" his way. (email me if you want to know what list, etc) I'm happy to work some healing/strength mojo for him, but *only* if he is okay with it being done.