![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phoenix_arose1st before i begin a few words from others then i will spill my guts
May my Body
Be a Prayer stick
For the world
-- Joan Halifax
Fear Not.
What is not real, never was and never will be.
What is real, always was and cannot be destyoyed.
-- Bhagavad Gita
Hold on the darkness thoughno gleam of light breaks through.
Keep on dreaming dreams althought they never quite come true.
Keep on moving forward though you do not know what's ahead.
Keep on keeping on thought it's a lonly road ahead.
Keep on looking up towards the goal you have in view.
Keep on in the hope that there are better timesin store.
Keep on praying for the thing that you are waiting for.
Blessings come to those who in the turmoil of events
Seek to see the goodness of the Will of Providence.
Hold to this and never doubt. Keep head and sprits high.
You'll discover that the storm was only passing by.
Seek Love in the pity of another's woe,
In the gentle relief of another's care.
In the darkness of night and the winter's snow.
In the naked and outcast -- Seek love there.
-- Anonymous
Okay guys here's the deal i was in love once(and who hasn't been) i thought then as do i now the this was "it"; my soul mate. i spent 4 years stupidly in love, the kinda love where you just drove 14 hours to see him; he didn't give you driections on how to get to where her is staying in Denver; you spent 4 hours looking for him in Denver - you get there and all you think about is how nice it is to be in his arms again. that kinda love and when it was all over i had to find my self again (waves at self).
Okay now that i'm here - i have tried very hard to find that kinda love again - well actually i have been trying to see if it finds me but that gets some what tiresome. I am tring to be pro-active about "falling" again.
So i was listening to several songs on the radio -- you know i got to thinking if i'm not mostly jaded - tooooo entirely jaded to fall in love again. to stay that way for any leanth of time -
I think it's a dark time of year for me i have things to mourn over the next few monthes - and i think that is eating on me too - while they are only small deamons in my head they are still dancing around my flame of life - (no no they aren't trying to kill me) they are asking me to embrace things -
Embrace the darkness i don't know if that's someting i relly want to do - not with out someone to pull me back from the edge - or perhaps someone to to stand at the edge and hold the place for me while i wander back and forthe. Or even some one to got there with me who can embrace the darkness in me.
okay i think i should stop bitching as soon i will be with my lover and perhaps i shoudl speak with him over this - although i'm not sure that he's the one to embrace the dark side either but then I won't know till i ask.
Fine
May my Body
Be a Prayer stick
For the world
-- Joan Halifax
Fear Not.
What is not real, never was and never will be.
What is real, always was and cannot be destyoyed.
-- Bhagavad Gita
Hold on the darkness thoughno gleam of light breaks through.
Keep on dreaming dreams althought they never quite come true.
Keep on moving forward though you do not know what's ahead.
Keep on keeping on thought it's a lonly road ahead.
Keep on looking up towards the goal you have in view.
Keep on in the hope that there are better timesin store.
Keep on praying for the thing that you are waiting for.
Blessings come to those who in the turmoil of events
Seek to see the goodness of the Will of Providence.
Hold to this and never doubt. Keep head and sprits high.
You'll discover that the storm was only passing by.
Seek Love in the pity of another's woe,
In the gentle relief of another's care.
In the darkness of night and the winter's snow.
In the naked and outcast -- Seek love there.
-- Anonymous
Okay guys here's the deal i was in love once(and who hasn't been) i thought then as do i now the this was "it"; my soul mate. i spent 4 years stupidly in love, the kinda love where you just drove 14 hours to see him; he didn't give you driections on how to get to where her is staying in Denver; you spent 4 hours looking for him in Denver - you get there and all you think about is how nice it is to be in his arms again. that kinda love and when it was all over i had to find my self again (waves at self).
Okay now that i'm here - i have tried very hard to find that kinda love again - well actually i have been trying to see if it finds me but that gets some what tiresome. I am tring to be pro-active about "falling" again.
So i was listening to several songs on the radio -- you know i got to thinking if i'm not mostly jaded - tooooo entirely jaded to fall in love again. to stay that way for any leanth of time -
I think it's a dark time of year for me i have things to mourn over the next few monthes - and i think that is eating on me too - while they are only small deamons in my head they are still dancing around my flame of life - (no no they aren't trying to kill me) they are asking me to embrace things -
Embrace the darkness i don't know if that's someting i relly want to do - not with out someone to pull me back from the edge - or perhaps someone to to stand at the edge and hold the place for me while i wander back and forthe. Or even some one to got there with me who can embrace the darkness in me.
okay i think i should stop bitching as soon i will be with my lover and perhaps i shoudl speak with him over this - although i'm not sure that he's the one to embrace the dark side either but then I won't know till i ask.
Fine
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
no subject
Date: 2003-11-18 05:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-18 05:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-18 07:30 pm (UTC)Don't give up so early. I know many people who have not been able to sustain a relationship with someone they truly loved, because one or the other of them was not willing or able to put in the work that is necessary to sustain a relationship.
Remember that in the movies, we only get to see the happy happy joy joy bits. Real life is not like that, except in fits and starts.
Being in love with someone for the long haul is a decision you make, a commitment to something larger than the two of you.
I'll shut up now. :)
no subject
Date: 2003-11-19 07:43 am (UTC)I couldn't have said it better. OK, I hate to sound old and trite, but at the risk of sounding old and trite "Girl, you aren't even 21 yet!" and yes I fell for the love of my life at the ripe old age of 19 and I spent almost a quarter century dedicated to making that relationship work.
OK, I've tried writing about a dozen wise things and I just keep digging my cliche hole deeper, so I'll shut up now.
no subject
Date: 2003-11-19 08:44 am (UTC)But how does one become un-jaded ?
no subject
Date: 2003-11-19 08:47 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-19 11:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-19 07:18 pm (UTC)I think what works for me, when I'm feeling jaded, is just to try one more time...and the next time, try one more time again. Trying and failing is ever so much better than not trying at all - at least, I think it is.
Directions...
Date: 2003-11-20 01:37 pm (UTC)Re: Directions...
Date: 2003-11-20 04:15 pm (UTC)