Enlightnement
Feb. 11th, 2004 04:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phoenix_aroseIn Hindi the word "ashram" means "to graple or stuggle". why is this impotant it all so thier word for Temple. a place where you go to graple or westle with your spirit.
After this weekend i understand why - how do you fix something that even trying to help will make worse ?
how do tell someone you love them but ... this is not the right time ?
how do you make them understand why ?
how do you make anyone understnad why you do what you do?
the real answer is to not care what all those extra people think.. or something but i have a hard time with that. i like having people be happy - even if i'm not - even if i have to rip everything around me apart to do it - i would do that to make them happy - I AM A PEOPEL PLEASER!
an i am okay with that most of the time - now is not a time - i will not make people happy i will fallow my heart and be guided by my head and make healthy and right choices for me - I WILL BE SELFISH-
this weekend i stuggled i fought won lost found hide recoverd and delt with life. And i am better for it .. althought it hurts and i will stand up tommorrow and i will move on thrugh my life causing ripples in others lives and typhons in others - but i will be okay with this - i am okay being a typhon?
After this weekend i understand why - how do you fix something that even trying to help will make worse ?
how do tell someone you love them but ... this is not the right time ?
how do you make them understand why ?
how do you make anyone understnad why you do what you do?
the real answer is to not care what all those extra people think.. or something but i have a hard time with that. i like having people be happy - even if i'm not - even if i have to rip everything around me apart to do it - i would do that to make them happy - I AM A PEOPEL PLEASER!
an i am okay with that most of the time - now is not a time - i will not make people happy i will fallow my heart and be guided by my head and make healthy and right choices for me - I WILL BE SELFISH-
this weekend i stuggled i fought won lost found hide recoverd and delt with life. And i am better for it .. althought it hurts and i will stand up tommorrow and i will move on thrugh my life causing ripples in others lives and typhons in others - but i will be okay with this - i am okay being a typhon?
