A day with the land
Jun. 25th, 2004 11:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
phoenix_aroseit was good for me it's something i need to do more often ... the earth has a soft song it sings and it gets lost in a city.
i spent the eveing in the company of good friends and am looking forward to tonight - richard and i are going to work the fire, which means i need to get a chemistry degree by tonight.
what i learned - i am coltish around males who have more than a plotonic interest in my body. Not in me just the interest in my body(and yes ther is a differnce). I have body issues - i know i shouldn't but i do. althought sex is not an afirmation of my femalness - my mind and heart and body are good enought for me. i enjoy it and it doesn't lower or raise my self confidence - it just enjoyable. but i am not looking for a lover at the moment and so the interest is cause me to want to run away - i can't tell if this is un healthy or just part of the new phase i'm going into/thru.
Caffine is toxic - i'm all about praising the goddess caffina - however - i have not been doing caffine in large doses in months - this mornning i got up skipped my yoga and had two cups of very good coffee and 2 pieces of very good bacon. and have spent the rest of the day trying not to die. My body is grumpy and my hands are shakey i'm going to need a nap later- good thing i'm not driving out to the camp out tonight.
i spent the eveing in the company of good friends and am looking forward to tonight - richard and i are going to work the fire, which means i need to get a chemistry degree by tonight.
what i learned - i am coltish around males who have more than a plotonic interest in my body. Not in me just the interest in my body(and yes ther is a differnce). I have body issues - i know i shouldn't but i do. althought sex is not an afirmation of my femalness - my mind and heart and body are good enought for me. i enjoy it and it doesn't lower or raise my self confidence - it just enjoyable. but i am not looking for a lover at the moment and so the interest is cause me to want to run away - i can't tell if this is un healthy or just part of the new phase i'm going into/thru.
Caffine is toxic - i'm all about praising the goddess caffina - however - i have not been doing caffine in large doses in months - this mornning i got up skipped my yoga and had two cups of very good coffee and 2 pieces of very good bacon. and have spent the rest of the day trying not to die. My body is grumpy and my hands are shakey i'm going to need a nap later- good thing i'm not driving out to the camp out tonight.
