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Jun. 9th, 2006 09:31 pmso yes if you need me you can't call the house or the cel or e-mail b/c i'm completely cut the fuck off .....
i'm almost sure i can get the house phone and computer back up if i reallyreallyreallyreallyreally had to but at the moment ...... i'm at tmy mother satempting tpbe patiecenty whiel i still wait for that damed e-mail to show up from att he says he put it in my comments ...... 15 min ago ..... it's not her eyet and honest ly all i really wanna do is go home curl up and cry i briefly considered the emerald forest but have desided against it - Ryan would be like the only one i know that thand i would feel out of place and clingy so i'm goignto give it till 9:45 and then i'm calling amtt and telling him ii'm holding his licence to fly hostiage till i get th e-mail or he reads it to me
i'm just really don't with this waiting don't have time or wanna make any feeling i get from him - and this outstanding e-mail kinda sucks too - he's also stopped saying i love you to me on the phone ... that really hurt more than words can express since it's not like her here to show me love he could ataleast say it ... althoguth perhaps he doesn't mean it so he's not saying - that also hurts but there just isn't a whole lot i can do with that .......
less than 10 to go .... i'm gogin back to CNN
i'm almost sure i can get the house phone and computer back up if i reallyreallyreallyreallyreally had to but at the moment ...... i'm at tmy mother satempting tpbe patiecenty whiel i still wait for that damed e-mail to show up from att he says he put it in my comments ...... 15 min ago ..... it's not her eyet and honest ly all i really wanna do is go home curl up and cry i briefly considered the emerald forest but have desided against it - Ryan would be like the only one i know that thand i would feel out of place and clingy so i'm goignto give it till 9:45 and then i'm calling amtt and telling him ii'm holding his licence to fly hostiage till i get th e-mail or he reads it to me
i'm just really don't with this waiting don't have time or wanna make any feeling i get from him - and this outstanding e-mail kinda sucks too - he's also stopped saying i love you to me on the phone ... that really hurt more than words can express since it's not like her here to show me love he could ataleast say it ... althoguth perhaps he doesn't mean it so he's not saying - that also hurts but there just isn't a whole lot i can do with that .......
less than 10 to go .... i'm gogin back to CNN
