'tis the season

[phoenix_arose]

I am become an adult, i am trying to build a life with someone i love, i am stepping away from my family just a bit and i feel guilty about it. Why well my dad is missing me .... why you ask well i suppose as he's getting older our unspoken agrement is less plaeseing to him.

My daddy was not a very nice daddy, actually he pro'ly wasn't a very happy person but in general but i seem to have born the brunt of it. physical abuse is easy to forgive and hard to forget. the emtional and mental abuse is hard to forgive and easy to forget, by it's very nature is hard to pin point.

when my folks split i was ten and by the time i was graduating hs i was willing to spend a few hours alone with dad

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Comments

[blue-jay.livejournal.com]

Just be careful. Your dad hurt you a lot, probably even more than you recognize, and hurt other people through you, so you don't owe him anything. If he's missing you, then too bad for him. Unless you actually want to see him, in which case, just be careful.

[perfect-drug.livejournal.com]

yeah i'm off to dallas tonight ... i suffer from being obligated to me my family - life is looking better at the moment - i miss you all - hope to see you soon