weekend in a nut shell

[phoenix_arose]

I WANT: a husband, to be a mom, a home of my own
I HAVE: a wonderful life, great friends, and wonderful boyfriend
I WISH: i didn't have to worry about the money so much right now
I HATE: people whom arecruel intentionally
I MISS: being "carefree"
I FEAR: that i will be a horrible mother, that i will die alone
I HEAR: lots of thengs
I SEARCH: for the truth, for things that make me happy
I WONDER: if i had chosen differntly where would i be now
I REGRET: I try not to have these
I LOVE: Everyone, dancing, singing, lounging around, long hot baths
I ACHE: For all those whom are un happy and i an unable to impove thier situaltion
I ALWAYS: Try, love, dance
I AM NOT: always what people think i am
I DANCE: all the time, and my soul flies
I SING: off key just a little bit but d o it any way
I CRY: as a release - for any emothion and not useally in public
I AM NOT ALWAYS: as serious as i apear to be
I WRITE: erotica and daily in several journals
I WIN: eh winning is over rated i would perfer to be happy withthe out come
I LOSE: my mind on a regular basis and my heart to those who deserve it
I CONFUSE: people, places, and proper names of things
I NEED: to be touched, loved, respected and cared for
I SHOULD: take better care of my spriit


Ahhh back from 3 days inthe woods and out on the land

Thursday was wonderful sorta i got up took a bath and taked to d. who said that we would drive out together so i wouldn't feel lost . drove up to his place and he was all stressed so what actually ended up happening was me driving out bitchiing at anna about d. Be that as it may by the time i got out theer i was much calmer and ready for the wonderful weekend it was

Friday i did my shitck at farie mound and had good breakfast and then hung about all day

Saturday i i got roasted and didi a belly dance workshop with aronal. Oh yeah i also priestessed lighting the fire with the dragons. that was very cool (well actually it was abouy 2000 degrees in the fire so it was really really hot but lighting it was a very cool expericance)

now i must go pay the rent and get to work =)