okay an update a real one

[phoenix_arose]

i've been writing a couple of my paper journals instead of here, which is okay 'cause it's mostly been evil head noise anyway.

i think i'm finally coming back in to focus

1. i got new glasses ... they are cute and an updated look
the bad news: they cost money
the good news: my eyes have stablized
2. My car needs CPR .. something with the valves or the head gasget - for those of you who don't undrstand car speak - they have to pull off the top of my block and pressure test it ... IHATECARS

3. Hours and Money - just not enought of them but i'm working on that .. hopefully soon things will get better very soon ... ::thingking happy money and job thoughts::

that is life in a nut shell - that is what i have been dealing with although i think i need some quality me and land time cause i really freaked out last week. My mom used to say things about food being intimidating .... i am now very well aquanited with that feeling ... for the first time ever i couldn't eat the thought of it cause me to panic.

things are better now