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Ah-Ha - TMI for some - brain puzzle
Jan. 29th, 2006 10:16 pmWho:i beleive i have figured out why i stopped pampering my self -
What:relclaimed at least a small part of my self from Kris
Where: in my my clean bath tube
Why: Kris while he din't per se care whether or not i was shaved trimed and purfumed - he simply rewarded me for it - he noticed - in the relationship we had that approval was my life ... so when i dated guys who don't noitice or reward. my brain Tells me that i should stop it's not what "whom ever" wants and so i stop it ... strange that
When: tonight it was shaving my legs with the relization that matt does not notice or care - and enjoying myself
How: i was letting my inner monolog have a live out loud voice (yes i was talking to myself*glares at people*) and i stumbled on this
What:relclaimed at least a small part of my self from Kris
Where: in my my clean bath tube
Why: Kris while he din't per se care whether or not i was shaved trimed and purfumed - he simply rewarded me for it - he noticed - in the relationship we had that approval was my life ... so when i dated guys who don't noitice or reward. my brain Tells me that i should stop it's not what "whom ever" wants and so i stop it ... strange that
When: tonight it was shaving my legs with the relization that matt does not notice or care - and enjoying myself
How: i was letting my inner monolog have a live out loud voice (yes i was talking to myself*glares at people*) and i stumbled on this
