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phoenix_aroseis it healthy to have disapointing someone feel like there is a bullet going through you?
it doesn't always feel that way - just when i really fall for someone.
Matt drove up here to have lunch at 12:00pm - i haven't worked a monday in over 2 monthes - there is a conferance call at noon so there for no one to cover me.
i felt like a a shot to the heart - i know where this comes from it comes from Kris - the fear the he would leave if i wasn't perfect. and disapointing him was definatly a bad thing. it a hang up i know that Matt's not htat way but -- funny how the mind hangs on to those things.
*SIDENOTE* Aa i was writing this Matt came in to the store and hung about - he wasn't mad or anything - his wonderfulness always amazes me - or perhaps how f*ed up i was after Kris. i love matt
it doesn't always feel that way - just when i really fall for someone.
Matt drove up here to have lunch at 12:00pm - i haven't worked a monday in over 2 monthes - there is a conferance call at noon so there for no one to cover me.
i felt like a a shot to the heart - i know where this comes from it comes from Kris - the fear the he would leave if i wasn't perfect. and disapointing him was definatly a bad thing. it a hang up i know that Matt's not htat way but -- funny how the mind hangs on to those things.
*SIDENOTE* Aa i was writing this Matt came in to the store and hung about - he wasn't mad or anything - his wonderfulness always amazes me - or perhaps how f*ed up i was after Kris. i love matt
