Life check in
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phoenix_aroseEmotional:
I am loved a am feeling loved, and am no longer feeling shunned (yes this was just in my head) but it's all good now i need to get out more but i can't ATM reason shall be fully explined below. Spring is in my blood, yay spring.
Spritual:
I am feeling dead,sorta well more like asleep. But i think what's been growing inside me is just waiting for the sign that it can take off and run and bloom, and grow wild. Bastet and I need somemore time for each other, but once again later in the post shall explian that. I am so looking forword to CMA and hopfully Pallas after that - it will be good for me !
Physical:
I am totally exhausted my gas tank is on empty with little to no forseble change to recharge. Therefore I shall just clench tighly to my spoons, and hope they make it though
Work:
Work is actually desipe everything that is going on ... not to bad.
Tuesday i am actually supppost to have answersto the 80 million questions i have had over the past 3 days.
UE will officailly wash their hands of us on the 9th of April, so far my understanding is that everyhitng is going to be the same mostly and when it's over (the latest will be june 30th) and then i will have leters of recomnedation from my store manager and my reional ops manager. that is actually pretty cool. Also i have had other offer to go outside TX to CSR/OPS manage but i thin ki'll just stick around here and hope that something presents it's self when i need it. however that does mean i'm woring pretty much all the time so i get very little rest and my sleep has been kinda not so restful.
Relationship:
I think everything is good - Matt really is a god actually. Having given up on my celebacy (only with Matt) he has managed to tell me no and mean it about wanting sex of even any sexual interation - which has in turn alloed me to not feel like a peice of meat - he won't use my body against me. And the most important thing He will NOT allow ME to use my body against MYSELF. That's great! I feel sexy. I am safe and happy and life can't get too much better thant that.
In other news i have just discovered that my best friend iscoming to stay tonight (unplanned) but pleasant so i'm off to collect Matt from the couch and get pillows for anna bear
****Check***
I am loved a am feeling loved, and am no longer feeling shunned (yes this was just in my head) but it's all good now i need to get out more but i can't ATM reason shall be fully explined below. Spring is in my blood, yay spring.
Spritual:
I am feeling dead,sorta well more like asleep. But i think what's been growing inside me is just waiting for the sign that it can take off and run and bloom, and grow wild. Bastet and I need somemore time for each other, but once again later in the post shall explian that. I am so looking forword to CMA and hopfully Pallas after that - it will be good for me !
Physical:
I am totally exhausted my gas tank is on empty with little to no forseble change to recharge. Therefore I shall just clench tighly to my spoons, and hope they make it though
Work:
Work is actually desipe everything that is going on ... not to bad.
Tuesday i am actually supppost to have answersto the 80 million questions i have had over the past 3 days.
UE will officailly wash their hands of us on the 9th of April, so far my understanding is that everyhitng is going to be the same mostly and when it's over (the latest will be june 30th) and then i will have leters of recomnedation from my store manager and my reional ops manager. that is actually pretty cool. Also i have had other offer to go outside TX to CSR/OPS manage but i thin ki'll just stick around here and hope that something presents it's self when i need it. however that does mean i'm woring pretty much all the time so i get very little rest and my sleep has been kinda not so restful.
Relationship:
I think everything is good - Matt really is a god actually. Having given up on my celebacy (only with Matt) he has managed to tell me no and mean it about wanting sex of even any sexual interation - which has in turn alloed me to not feel like a peice of meat - he won't use my body against me. And the most important thing He will NOT allow ME to use my body against MYSELF. That's great! I feel sexy. I am safe and happy and life can't get too much better thant that.
In other news i have just discovered that my best friend iscoming to stay tonight (unplanned) but pleasant so i'm off to collect Matt from the couch and get pillows for anna bear
****Check***
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