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[phoenix_arose]

So i'm not having a good personal day

I won't lie - i have control issues- an i learned the lesson that yoi can't control everythign or every one - but i can control my reation to them -

List of things i have not control over ATM
-Work or the lack there of i don't know how many times the can tell me that they can't be with out me plaese don't leave no one wants to see you go - but they can't get me hired b4 i leave but they have 6 weeks(apox) to do it in. some days i just can't be mentally here b/c i know that no matter how hard i work how good i am at a job i'm fucked in 6 weeks unless they deside to hire people - fuck that i'm stilllooking for something that pays at least 11$/hr and i can afford to be picky untill about May 22nd the i need to take a job that's it for any $$$ cause i can't afford to be with out a job.

-Matt + Me and my half of the relationship, iknow how hard long distance is for some people for about 90% of people b/c this is only the second time i've tried to do it and it's the only time i've tried to do it monogamsyly - know i know why long distance is hard - screw this longdistance should = semi open status as in i can go hang out with a male freind and not have to worrk that someone is goingto flip out if i don't get home untill 3am or that i stay there b/c we were up talking and drink wine untill 3am and i didn't want to drive home. Even more ideal for me would be all things are fair game except sex(intercourse). that would be the ideal place for me (taking this train to a private journal)


those are the 2 big ones - i'm looking for work to help withthe 1st one but i can't get matt stillin one place long enought to even think about talking about the other one he doesn't like talking on the phone - why did he fail to metion that b4 he left wheni made it very clear that i expacted to be on the phone talking alot while he was gone


freaking hell and people are haveing mostly bad days today withthe eception of jaela (congrats) - i go back to working for people who are going to fire me now =P

Comments

[lancehunter.livejournal.com]

First of all, nice icon. When did you get it?

Second, as far as work goes, isn't it possible to get your Volt assignment renewed even if you don't get hired on? It makes sense that they would rather put you on another assignment there then get someone new and have to train them to take your place.

[perfect-drug.livejournal.com]

they don't extend contracts here ..... on this side of it - there is no way unless .... i leaved for 6 months and then come back and start over from ground zero


and i just foundn out that i am not eligible to apply for this round - not as close as last time but damn ... movreing on now

LJ now lets you take a jpeg and make it in to an icon -... so that's from my sophmore year of college..... time flies